Have you ever had someone's make you feel inferior, or as worthless as a speck of dust floating around in the air? 

Has that person rolled their eyes at things you say, or put you down in a "jokingly" manner in front of others, or even make you feel like they could either take you or leave you, it wouldn't affect them at all?

I have, and it's not fun, it's heartbreaking, especially when you thought you had a good relationship with this person and you were very close to them, then you come to find out it seems like the whole thing is one sided. It hurts.

But, that's when you need to stop feeling sorry for yourself, you didn't lose them. They lost you, somehow. 

I am a very lovable, easy going, laid back kinda of person, I love to love people, those that will let me. If I trust you, I will be very open with you about everything. Don't get me wrong, I have my days when I just wanna be by myself, and be a hermit. But I have more good days than bad.

But some people for some reason aren't like that.

They can seem closed up, cold and not able to receive love at times.

I have not come up with a solution to this problem yet other than don't let their attitude affect your loving nature. Keep being who you are, don't resolute to being cold and distant to keep from getting hurt. Just be you.

If you feel the need to confront the person about why they act the way they do, then do it, but only do it with love and concern for your friendship with them.

Some people just don't know how to show they care about you in a friendship, I don't know why, they just don't.

But one thing is for sure, if they make you feel like less of a person when you're around them, and they put you down and make you feel inferior, get them out of your life. You don't need that negativity.

You need people to encourage you, tell you what you're capable of, lift you up, and you need a friend you can trust.

And also be the kind of friend you would want to have. You don't want a friend that never checks on you, never tells you to have a good day, never listens, never prays with them or for them, never offer a helping hand. You want someone you can depend on, for many things like: advice, midnight phone calls, Netflix buddy, food junkie, prayer, laughter, help anytime you need it, and encouraging words. 

Even though you may be friends with someone, they may tell you a lot, but not everything. They could keep the deepest darkest part of their life hidden, maybe because they are ashamed, or hurt, but always be aware that they could be hurting in some way, and your words or actions could make or break them, especially if you're their bestfriend.

The title BESTFRIEND is a BIG title to me. And it should only be given to those you trust whole heartedly. I for instance have 2 best-friends: Jesus, and Chelsea. They are the only two I trust with EVERYTHING. 

Choose your friends wisely, and pray for those that don't wanna be your friend, and tell yourself it ok that they don't. 

Xoxo,

Kiersty