My heart

I have no clue what the subject of this is supposed to be, but I'm writing it anyways. 

This past week has been so amazingly eye opening for me, in many ways.

My church just held our revival services, and each one was so amazing, life changing, spirit stirring and heart renewing. I don't want revival to ever leave my soul. I wanna stay on fire for God, and make a difference in this world.

During this revival I grew closer to God, he drew closer to me, he healed me in ways I didn't know I needed healing, emotionally, spiritually and physically. He made me realize that I need to step up my game. 

If I could give everyone a portion of how spectacularly wonderful I feel right now I would, because I never want to NOT feel this way. God can give you the most wonderful feelings, feelings that no human being could ever give you. He will make you feel loved, whole, pure, needed, wanted, and many other wonderful things that I couldn't possibly list.

I couldn't imagine my life without Him, He makes me who I am today. I wasn't always so chipper, loving or caring. At one point in my life, I had hate and bitterness in my heart against people, I was lost. I didn't know who I was, or who I wanted to be, until one day I was in the car going somewhere with my family and I thought quietly  to myself, "there is something missing in my life."

I never told anyone about my thought, not one word. 

I went to church one night, on a Wednesday, and during alter call the pastor walked over to me and said, "Do you ever feel like something's missing in your life?" Then he held out his hand and prayed with me, as tears rolled down my cheeks, I could feel relief in me.

And at that moment I knew, there was something missing, and that something was a SOMEONE, His name is God.

I remember crying, and praying. I let go of everything from my past, things that haunted me. I let go and let God. I let  Him take my heart and my life, and he molded me and shaped me into a lady after his heart. He is still to this very day, molding me and shaping me into a lady of God. 

Now, I'm not saying since I follow God that everything is peachy keen, because I still have many struggles and trials. But during those struggles and trials God is always there, helping me through them.

He promises to never leave us or forsake us, and He has held true to His promise.

I wish there were words for me to describe to you who God is and why I love Him so much, but I can't. 

What I can tell you is He will never disappoint you. He is my provider, Father in Heaven, my hope, my joy, my everything. He is God almighty. 

Xoxo, 

Kiersty